While I appreciate the health benefits of losing so much weight, I must say that I am a bit taken back at how many girls find me attractive. Honestly, it is a bit distracting. Before, I could do me own thing no problem. Now that I am starting to dress and look how I feel, it freaks me out a bit at how much people are really paying attention. While I am as vulnerable as I am already because of eating the right foods, I really don't welcome the distraction. Still, I appreciate the new challenge. I am constantly worried that I will come off fake though. It could just be a misconception, but in my opinion, most preps are conceited and shallow. I want anyone to feel they can approach me. This is my mind thoughts. Yay for new challenges!

How can  I  advertise that I  will be a great  husband if  I have never experienced marriage? I feel I am a good person; God has used me, and he has really changed me. I am going to be a great father BECAUSE of working with children in different situations...I can attest to that. How am I able to date? I do everything else well (for the most part), but I just am not willing to possibly put someone else through harm in an attempt to see if  I do well or not.

Had I waited until September to travel to Europe, my $7,000 trip would have costed $5,700

It is exciting to know that I am destined for His glory! Today, I admit to you that I am HAPPY. I am excited to be starting this new chapter of my adventure. I am excited to discover that I am more prepared for this than what first believed. I have cut the mass-facebook-attention sucker for about one month, and now I feel that again, I am not constantly in the spotlight. It is a relief to know that again I can be the dork in the background with no pretenses.

Today was my first day of class. Ironically, I was the only boy (if you haven't noticed this common pattern in my life, you frankly just don't know me!). A girl expressed an opinion that I disagreed with, and after she spoke, I proposed a makeshift option. The class agreed with me (I wasn't seeing this as a competition!!), and for the rest of the class, I got THE GLARE. lol, sad day! Today was actually the first classroom class I've taken (once I participated in a hybrid class where students show up for labs).

This week, I also signed up for my new apartment (following plan: WIN!)! I have never been so excited to really enjoy myself....you see, I furniture madness is next! =) I just want to have fun! Goodness, I can't wait. I am already getting in the Christmas music mood, and I am SO EXCITED to decorate for Christmas....for me, the nostalgia will make this work! The complex also has a gas grill in the middle picnic area. SO EXCITED to throw fall parties! =)

Now understanding the intensity of the classes will be tolerable, I want to either pick up Dollar Tree or put in some hours at the Open Door Mission....or both! I am enjoying the last few REALLY nice days of summer/fall, and that will be my next focus.

The Loftus Family is in deep wedding plans. Honestly, I feel a bit shafted for not being included in Erin's wedding. Seriously, everyone else is. Regardless, the day is not about me and whatever Erin is going for, I am going for! I do well at not making my feelings known, and thus, we will party hardy! I have been losing weight for this big event! HOW exciting! The first member of the family is being married off.......gosh! Super excited that I have to wear something nice after the days of dieting.

To finish September off right, I will be going skydiving (hopefully!)! Tony from EVS is going with a dog-loving-church group. ....yeah, pretty far out! Nonetheless, I'm totally in....$60 price! Gosh, I am excited! Depending on how crunched for time, I may see if I could go twice!! =D

Well, this is all the happenings here! Super exciting to see what's next! lol I'll keep you posted!

Desperately Seeking A Heart After You.....

So, summer is closed! Heck to the YES. What a successful summer. I went to Europe for forty days, Oklahoma for youth camp, South Dakota with Danine, Ariella, and Harry; and I went to World's of Fun in Kansas City for a day with a bunch of people. I have more pictures than what I know what to do with, and I am getting ready to dive head-long into studies. I even accomplished losing thirty lbs. Fall priorities....GO! haha, let's see what is ahead.....

Well, from the healthy eating aspect, I really want to continue down this lifestyle choice. I no longer crave yeast ...or sugar for that matter! Things could always go south, but I am confident I enjoy becoming the nutrition nut that is slowly starting to form to at least keep me entertained for awhile. This isn't to say that I am going to forsake all....some people take things way too far!! I will, however, enjoy life while eating right as long as the topic continues to interest me.

Education standpoint. It has been a half a year since I participated in any type of class. I am ready to continue on the school bandwagon. Two plans are being established....Plan A will include the specifics IF I obtain a passing score on the last PPST test I took (175 or better), and Plan B will move into specifics if I do not get a quality score. Surprisingly, I passed the reading comprehension test with a 178; I scored a 179 on the mathematics exam. The grammar test, which includes an essay, is still being graded, and I will know those results by Thursday. If I am required to retake my PPST grammar test, I really will not be bummed! My focus on this project was to pass the reading comprehension with an acceptable score. Thankfully, this was achieved!

Plan A.
Say goodbye to AWESOME Jay, Danine, and Ariella....move into new complex. Spend money to obtain a quality complex with both a clean neighborhood and close to the places I need to travel. This would ideally be next to both Children's AND the UNO. I would purchase another scooter and get around (hopefully saving hundreds!!)on very little gas. I would purchase quality furniture and really spruff up my place. Megan's apartment complex would also be considered in this although she doesn't live real close to work and school. Why? For the cost of a one bedroom there, I would get a washer and a dryer already in the apartment. This also has a grilling area in the middle of the parking area where I would LOVE to throw parties on! =) A small dog may even be considered. (one that doesn't shed!!)

Plan B.
This will also include moving out of the Guerrero household (harder than what it appears!). This plan will most definitely include moving into Megan's apartment complex and enjoying new furniture and even perhaps a scooter. These items AND my college will be paid off within a reasonable time frame. I may consider cooking classes.....don't get me wrong, I am not seeking to be Chef Piere, BUT I do want to offer a confident selection when I cook for both myself and others.


I have really been able to rest and regather my thoughts while at the Guerrero household. The burden of being a "perfect adult" was shielded by the Guerrero's, and I was able to rest and regather my strength prior to heading back out. They have waited long enough for me to actually BE ready to face life's challenges again.

I have felt so free being off Facebook. I feel I am more legitimate when I see people; although, I do miss them. ....but by "miss them", I mean, I miss being in their business.....not cool!