You're gifted you're unique, don't you see?
The one from above has clearly blessed thee;
It's like you got it, your rolling thin,
Until you wait expectantly to be knocked down again;
When it happens, you are not surprised;
You simply say 'this is life';
But it doesn't have to be your calling, oh I wish you could see;
You were made for so much more than what you can see;
Why do you let them get to you? Clearly they are bitter;
Yet nothing you could think positively about yourself could even have a quarter of impact;
Why do you let those negative people around you have so much power;
You were made for more.

Don't define your standards to what others see;
Because they see only where you are now and some of their faults in thee;
Set a goal to achieve and become, something you don't even fully grasp yet!

You were made for so much more!
Don't succumb to the world's standards, simply because you KNOW you are made for more;
Fight for that piece of you, that part of you you don't quite yet see!
Let NO ONE take your mantle;

Child of God, I wish you could just see,
How much you really mean to me!
I don't care about what you have done in the past, but come let me change you to reshape you to become fully alive.
Goodness, I love you so. Can't you see? I have called you to be someone mighty! Let me lead you, DON'T back down;
What I have for you is not for the faint-hearted;
Walk with me, walk with me, and when you mess up, 'say fa le';
Repent and turn back to me;
My plan is to make you come fully alive;
And so, take those mistakes, especially that shame and doubt, and give them to me, for there is so much more to accomplish;
I love you, my child:
Continue to run to me; For I will never leave you or forsake you;
My paths for you are GOOD;
Walk with me.

I see this in you , and I want I see, you fight and fight and become the person you want to be;
I want to root for you when you are down, and beg of you to get up and keep going;
My plan with you is set;
I will cheer you on and give you the promises we are all given ;
Keep your eyes on the prize; I am rooting for you;
And when you mess up (we all do), just remember, I am and always will be rooting for you!!

When I feel like I'm suffocating with people staring at me I distance myself by stepping back and organizing.

Be sensitive to detail, but also lower your judgemental level about mistakes

The Lord wants to walk with me as I see myself age, but my soul is reluctant. Part of me doesn't see why God would use an aging man, and part of me is afraid of being alone. I only want to find somebody who is a fit for me, not a forced mold. If there is no one or there is, I want to keep focused on what's next. I feel i won't give my whole heart to God because I want to play a victim mentality, feel lonely and feel sorry for myself for aging. Truth. He has told me He is not finished with me, even in my dying days, but I have to accept that and choose to walk with Him. I must embrace what he has for me in my older ages.

"Be brave enough to be willing to accept that God has plans for you as you age."

God has plans for me as I age

Giving your loneliness or anticipated loneliness to Jesus