We are not the victim.....and we never will be. Different circumstances will approach our lives, but it is critical that we see them for what they are....ruts in the road that will better us as people as we conquer them and move on. The people sent to concentration camps were not the victims. They were called for a certain period of time to be witnesses for Him; they did not complain. Granted, sure they had family members taken away just like really bad things happen to us today, but the Israelies REFUSED to stay down. We must not either....it is vital to our survival. See things for what they are. When life seems to corner us with negativity, we must look at it with hope knowing that IT WILL PASS. Don't get caught up in complaining about life....WE are the painters in our creations....HOW should we glorify God in every situation. Secondly, no one wants to hear people complain again and again and especially if it seems as through there is nothing more to you. God gave us a purpose....TODAY, this SECOND.....live for Him.....DON'T lose sight of the perspective. Through day-to-day struggles, let Him continue to create a better and better person IN US. Love ya!

Easter egg hunt maddness!

Why do people celebrate Easter with fake eggs? The colors originate from centuries before when it was a pagan ritual and honestly, babies were slaughtered and blood was captured; the people used it to color the eggs and please the fetility goddess. People don't think of this today, but all the same, I personally do not see me taking my kids to a Easter egg hunt. ...just because of that and because I HATE how parents misuse childlike faith to believe in characters that don't even exist (i.e. easter bunny, st. nic, etc.). HOW are they supposed to believe in the real God that really cares for them with a childhood of one that has believed everything else......I am fine tempering my thoughts and at least participating in Easter with friends and family....maybe even a few eggs, but I just CANNOT have my children believe in something that doesn't exist.....

Those thoughts stated, I absolutely have no say with other families, and I apprecaite the families' good traits, not bad ones. With that being stated, welcome to Palm Sunday with my family......


Braxton's mother is a good friend of Becky. He came with us to church! =) He was AWESOME as he left me take this while everyone was going crazy for eggs...."Just One," I told him! lol

My baby sister brandy, brooke, and grace?.



1800 eggs.......crazy! These kids should be in candy heaven after this!!

My baby sister!


Halla back for Palm Sunday! This was so cool how they did this! =D

Passover with a small church close to Wahoo, Nebraska...

We had massive problems with the huppah! Weddings, weddings, weddings! Today was another wedding! =D ....Shelly Whitner and Andy Spegiel. Andy was such a great guy...I had no idea his father passed away when he was 16! I would have definitely tried to hang out with him earlier. Rebbi Nate was there too; FINALLY, he no longer sees me as the enemy. The man has opened back up to me and I can feel his sweet spirit once again....that's not to say that I will go back to his church.















I almost feel like he maybe feels pressured there? He finally SEES us on the same team! FINALLY! =D I was the action man after the wedding, telling people where to go and dance, etc. I think it went well. I danced with Maria, and I kept trying to find the time to ask Sheri and Carol....I wanted them to feel included. It will be awesome to have a wife that will challenge me to do things I don't want to....become a better person because of it!


Later tonight, I booked it over to the Tranquility Park Ice Rink. The Trebbiens were there, and I watched everyone skate around. SO many memories came rushing back...the seriousness of the guy and girl holding hands while skating, the dance party in the middle, the every-other song being dedicated to the next couple, ahhh the realm of high school drama. How I miss how it all made sence. I remember the largest issue that separated youth from adults was allowing youth to let their guard down in front of adults.....sitting in the bleachers of this rock party, I realized that I was now on the other realm. Perhaps the kids saw me as a father? I laughed so hard at this....it seems I was just on their side.

I am happy with my life...I entertain myself even......I giggle about the strangest things continually. I'm sure people have to see me as a creeper! But JUST how many of these kids keep their guard up, I realized I have been doing the same thing. Because I put my heart on the line when I care for someone, I have talked to people about myself because I don't have to care, therefore trust them. I realized bitterness in my heart....NOW I have to pray and seek where it is from. I have noticed for awhile that I have talked about myself lately, and I ask why. Apparently, these people are not giving me enough of themselves to make a relationship last....should I try to keep it going by talking about what I have been doing in hopes that they will open up to me? The Lord has told me that there are alot of walls I put up towards people because I don't want to trust them...fun! lol

Walking out of the ice rink though was a blast! Leaving with about three-hundred kids all around me, I was no longer on the youth side, I was an adult judging side. Oh how I hope kids see my openess and willingness to understand them. If youth were to open up to the right adults, so many mistakes could be prevented. Me as an adult though....I continued giggling to the car! LOL!

I find out so much about my life by praying for others; people cannot love the way God loves until they go through the wilderness and the transformation process. Then, to the degree we allow God to change us and empty us, that is the degree we are able to obtain God's love and love others....with un unconditional, Godly love. Our transformations to not appear to be taking place from the world's perspective. The less we become of ourselves, the more we become of Him. When it looks like we have little, pray that it continues....you will reap much, much more when the time comes around. I am ready for people that will love others in a deep level.

I celebrated Passover tonight. It was also my mom's 50th birthday. It was at Melissa's house....always fun!

Trinity Uprising Retreat!!.....

Josh and Nathaniel doing the Karate Kid stance. It ended up in a tie...believe it or not...this was after four times!

I really appreciated this retreat. When things go wrong completely out of nowhere, it means either the devil is trying to ruin something that is going to be awesome or that this event was not supposed to happen; our job as leaders is to pray and seek out which one it is. This was an awesome retreat, but people had to be taken out of their comfort zones...love that! Things are going to happen in the body of Christ...we must be as prepared as possible for anything. Secondly, when fear tries to strike, we must not react....just let it pass, examine the situation, and and TRY to act with understanding. In the weeks to come, I have felt a damper on the Spirit, and I believe it was because people were not ready for the few issues that we encountered at the retreat...they believed things would go as planned 100%? God seeks people that will be steadfast for Him, no matter what happens. Much, MUCH greater things should be able to smack us, and we should sustain....I really hope more of these things keep happening, so we can move into that.

"I fought the law and the law one, I fought the law, and THHE LAWW ONE!"

Out of all the Loftus' to be in jail, I had never thought that I would be battleing one first! Ever!! In November, I received a ticket for my plates being a month overdue. ...working on this! Well, I misplaced the ticket (always working on this!), and I waited for paperwork to be sent to me. Well, I moved back to Omaha (I had lived in Wahoo), and I switch my mail over; this brought all kinds of back mail and recent mail. I finally saw the paperwork...yay, it had come in! ...I was paying bills in a few days, so I added that to my bill list (I HATE paying bills...like you I'm sure! Being an adult can suck sometimes, eh?). Well, I finally received a note saying pay be this date...ok, cool. That I can do! Everytime I tried to do the payment, the epayment wasn't working? ...not cool! Well, the day of the due date, I head out to Wahoo and pay the ticket....I get a call from my apartment manager saying HEADS UP, the cops are coming! haha...they showed up at my HOME! =D I was a rebel on the run!!
My sisters were a riot! ...they swore my phone was being tapped, so I kept saying I was in South Dakota in a corn field! lol I told my mom her son was a criminal.
I begged the ladies to AT THE VERY LEAST give me a copy of my warrent. I had all of them laughing. This was big news!! I checked online for a photo or something....unfortunately nothing..I would have to rob a bank for that. This is part of the paper of the "official" warrent....my copy will be hung in a frame in my apartment. Rebel with a CAUSE! =O



So, second best!
"Everybody in the whole cell block, WAS JAMMING to the jail house rock!"



This car kept following me around town....was this a undercover cop car? haha! Was it bugged?



The awesome courthouse...this has been here forever! The "official" courthouse used to be in Ashland, but I guess someone from Wahoo got ahold of the official "deed", and in the state judiciary won rights to have the courthouse moved to wahoo.....it has been here ever since.

Wahoo Thrift Stores...

Sweet ladies! I walked in, and immediately they begin stating that I looked like their grandsons....(Do all grandsons look alike?). They were all sweet, and although the thrift store was attached to the senior citizen center, these ladies were as sharp as a bell.
The lady above on the left said that she was great picking out clothes....I did not argue! She went with me through the store, picking out awesome shirts for me. All of this was $10. The downside to all this is that I now have an ENTIRE NEW dressing wardrobe to add....haha....goodwill old clothes?