Christian, Jeremiah and me....I told the waiter that we were celebrating Jeremiah's purity and to bring out the staff to sing to him...HE DID!!!! 'Virgin for 27 years!!' Haha!!!

Tonight, I ponder two things....

First, people reach a limit on what they can take in and learn from. Do you fight by surpassing the limit or by changing tactics and only giving once in a while? 

Secondly, from church today, I learned that we become disciples of the Lord and disciple to reach the point where our people split and disciple other people. 

Gratefulness. Having it for people. Hoping that I'm forever grateful. 

When people are grateful for me. It's nice. Sometimes the gratefulness take years to develop. 

I should just be proud that I've done everything I could. 

Courage. Strength. Gratefulness. 

At some point, our morals/values are no longer decaying because of being in the world, and we are standing on our own two feet without the support once required.

My job is to slingshot people forward. I have a high standing and have many life experiences. My job is to get behind them and push them to be the best they can be.

This is great, but in order for me to do this, I have to be able to reach them to get behind them. They have to have some strength accomplished for me to reach them.

God requires sacrifice. If you are not giving something up, you are giving any glory to God. 

I have mentored many youth over the last 15 years, seen many people get married and go off to their next stage of life. Many needed a fatherly figure, and I have tried my best to provide that as best I could. It was a sacrifice and took countless hours....which I am ok with in my sacrifice. I lacked a father, so I gave out of my need.

 I want children I can raise completely.

So I have to ask, is this a sacrifice that will remain? Will I have my own time to raise my children? 

I know had my father been the man I needed, I would have known what to do early in life and have been able to show the confidence needed to commit. I'm convinced. 

Nothing is more frustrating than being stuck and unable to move forward in the next stage of life. Being stuck as in there is nothing you can do about it. 

Yet still choosing to trust God and follow His path. 🙂

There is a counter culture where actions in relationships are not appreciated, instead expected. This standard makes the dating process seem defeating and makes one powerless. Especially when you end with the, 'it's not you, it's me' line. 

A girl broke up with me today. Thankfully, I'm not defeated. Sad and disappointed, sure. 

Still, I can't help but think that some of this had something to do with the fact that I was the first person who has ever asked her out. 

It's like I took a hit for the future guy who is going to make that relationship a success. 

Thankfully, from my end, I did everything correctly. I was smooth about my approaches and I even got in a few hand holdings and continuing to totally play it smooth. A hug from time to time. Win! 

There is a risk in dating girls who have never dated either. I'm sure the same is true for reverse. Until you get the process, you can't make the conscious decision to commit. In order to commit, you have to be comfortable with the process. So true with so many elements in life! 🙂