So here is my conundrum....I love a girl. Simple enough, right? This girl loves someone else. Ok, I can go with that. This girl had led many people I know on, and yet I still fell in love with her. Ok, stupid, but ok. Now, she is inviting me to the wedding, and I am thinking about going. OMGosh what are you doing?!!? Yeah, I, yes, I allowed myself to be vulnerable. Great job...go me! Where I dropped the baton though is that I fell in love with the same girl everybody else did also. FAIL. Ugh, now I know I MUST break this emotional attachment. I really saw us having a gay-ole' time too! lol, wellllll, so much for that fantasy! With dropping this branch that is attached to the tree, I must back far behind. Honestly, I will need to do something to do during the wedding time. (It's in another state, but none the less....haha, thankfully, I can safeguard myself from running into the ceremony and telling the Reverend to 'Stop Everything'.) I have allowed myself a few pity party days in the past; there comes a point where I need to stop because I am building a bank account of pity. Still.....boy did I get giddy and joyful with this dream.

Here are the choices decided in this stanza:

1. Wedding invite: Send a blender
2. Wedding Day: I'll be at work, but maybe I can watch movies with a friend or something. SOMETHING to
                          do something other than moping around.
3. Limited time for moping this time around. Yes, I may mope, but seriously, it is not the end of the world.