We had massive problems with the huppah! Weddings, weddings, weddings! Today was another wedding! =D ....Shelly Whitner and Andy Spegiel. Andy was such a great guy...I had no idea his father passed away when he was 16! I would have definitely tried to hang out with him earlier. Rebbi Nate was there too; FINALLY, he no longer sees me as the enemy. The man has opened back up to me and I can feel his sweet spirit once again....that's not to say that I will go back to his church.















I almost feel like he maybe feels pressured there? He finally SEES us on the same team! FINALLY! =D I was the action man after the wedding, telling people where to go and dance, etc. I think it went well. I danced with Maria, and I kept trying to find the time to ask Sheri and Carol....I wanted them to feel included. It will be awesome to have a wife that will challenge me to do things I don't want to....become a better person because of it!


Later tonight, I booked it over to the Tranquility Park Ice Rink. The Trebbiens were there, and I watched everyone skate around. SO many memories came rushing back...the seriousness of the guy and girl holding hands while skating, the dance party in the middle, the every-other song being dedicated to the next couple, ahhh the realm of high school drama. How I miss how it all made sence. I remember the largest issue that separated youth from adults was allowing youth to let their guard down in front of adults.....sitting in the bleachers of this rock party, I realized that I was now on the other realm. Perhaps the kids saw me as a father? I laughed so hard at this....it seems I was just on their side.

I am happy with my life...I entertain myself even......I giggle about the strangest things continually. I'm sure people have to see me as a creeper! But JUST how many of these kids keep their guard up, I realized I have been doing the same thing. Because I put my heart on the line when I care for someone, I have talked to people about myself because I don't have to care, therefore trust them. I realized bitterness in my heart....NOW I have to pray and seek where it is from. I have noticed for awhile that I have talked about myself lately, and I ask why. Apparently, these people are not giving me enough of themselves to make a relationship last....should I try to keep it going by talking about what I have been doing in hopes that they will open up to me? The Lord has told me that there are alot of walls I put up towards people because I don't want to trust them...fun! lol

Walking out of the ice rink though was a blast! Leaving with about three-hundred kids all around me, I was no longer on the youth side, I was an adult judging side. Oh how I hope kids see my openess and willingness to understand them. If youth were to open up to the right adults, so many mistakes could be prevented. Me as an adult though....I continued giggling to the car! LOL!